Aha!

As I sat meditating this AM, with my precious kitty on my lap, I understood why it is that most of my life Trust has been such an issue for me.  It has to do with the definition the little girl Carol Anne assigned to the word.  She thought/thinks that the word implies certainty.  If she follows the rules (no negative thinking, no negative talking, no negative feeling) then she can trust (be certain) that her world will be just as she wants it to be all of the time.  So my conversation with her over the next few days will be about a new definition, a new understanding of the word.  Trust doesn't guarantee anything; it merely says that no matter what happens, who comes and/or goes, who says what or doesn't say what, you know, all those imponderables, NO MATTER WHAT, I will be able to turn within, to the center, to the source, to the She who is within, around, about, above, below, and find there the strength, courage, acceptance and willingness to be present. 
Dear readers, thank you for allowing me to be me through it all!
Thanks for it all!